i promise to take gd care.. u will keep your promise rt? u also take gd care k!

fall sick again......... bked in today but bked out again high fever.. haix.. why i jus cant seem to stop being sick..........?

i will forget! i will survive! :)

so long.. 9 days outfield.. almost died jus came bk injuries everywhre but i completed my jcc.. got iv dripped when i finished the course cox got physical exhausion totally too tired out..really wonder whther commissioning day really wil c u ant.. totally mentally and physically drained out le.. dats why i finally gave way dat day.. so i guess rt nw i really got no energy to think anymore except to accept the fact that u will nv come and we will nv meet.. if we do dats gd if nt it wldnt matter that much anymore.. u say if u dun care u wldnt even try to encourage me haha..so dats care rt.. hmm maybe like wt say.. maybe i am really fooled..to even keep giving myself excuses and excuses again.. okie.. wake up it wldnt happen anymore no more

last before i go.. sry for yesterday.. was hoping u to have a longer msg.. realli jcc is nt something i am confident of esp navex i tried many ways to improve and nw i am better already ready to go jcc but rashes came up.. felt so low.. i may just fly thre and nt go for the course must c my condition... nv felt so low before.. the jab made me feel weak also.. i need alot of slp too.. i almost fainted after i took the jab la.. and got alot of breathing difficulties.. wenting was thre also.. haix think she also scared by me haha.. cox i keep waking up unable to go to slp cox scared i wun be able to breathe properly.. i really really will try my best but realli super low nw.. haha.. u must take gd care of yaself k.. u say de horx u will be thre if i commission.. so i will def try my best...


take care. bye

and yes i shld give up.. nw.. at this moment in my bunk nw.. ya hardship is only temporary.. other than that take care.. seems so .. haha i shld have known okie.. dun msg me animore can? i will give up nw.. i promise.. just let me lead my own life.. u r nt at all concerned think u shld have found someone new le.. gd luck and be happy k.." i noe u r leaving tmr nite le" haha ya u dunit to know jus like u dunit to see anione commission ya correct i agree fully with u.. leave me alone.. bye

feel realli realli down today.. got a very stupid rash and it spread to my whole face.. went to plc medical centre to take a jab buden it didnt realli help instead make me even more sick wanted realli badly to go hme cox i realli feel qt sick but have to go for rcp..felt super low..if onli i cld just hear u i promise i wun be so down.
can u just appear before me nw? pls..just before i go brunei? i am really afraid i wil nt b able to make it i am dying of fatigue and everything..
pls i only wan to see u nthing more. take gd care of yaself k.