so long.. 9 days outfield.. almost died jus came bk injuries everywhre but i completed my jcc.. got iv dripped when i finished the course cox got physical exhausion totally too tired out..really wonder whther commissioning day really wil c u ant.. totally mentally and physically drained out le.. dats why i finally gave way dat day.. so i guess rt nw i really got no energy to think anymore except to accept the fact that u will nv come and we will nv meet.. if we do dats gd if nt it wldnt matter that much anymore.. u say if u dun care u wldnt even try to encourage me haha..so dats care rt.. hmm maybe like wt say.. maybe i am really fooled..to even keep giving myself excuses and excuses again.. okie.. wake up it wldnt happen anymore no more