i cant slp..properly.. the thought of just letting it go is tough.. but i have to do it.. jiayou!jiayou!

i love you but i know i cant love u anymore.
last entry.
it hurts really everytime when you seem to start openin up to me again and u tell me something that you r just asking or dropping the medicine for the last time. it really hurts and its really affecting me. i guess i really need to stop now..i really hope u will find someone u really love.. some day and me too.. i will move on.. take care.. thnks for making me love someone before, i really really want to spend my life with you but i know ya feeling is not thre anymore and this is the limit i can do..good bye.. and take care

pls dun do anything for me anymore.. u dunit to.. jus leave me alone pls.

hmm..was qt pissed yesterday... got the feeling that i am bothering u again, u jus said sumthing like jus asking only...like i am just asking abt hw u r feeling nthing else that kind.. hmm dun worri i wun bother u wan.. u can just tell me straight in the face..if dats hw u r feeling..

i dreamt of meeting u last night i was like near ya hse and suddenly ya mum ask me to join her for dinner, asking me to stay but i ran away afraid to see u.. i seldom dream but glad that i have dat dream.. when can i c u again? one day down to cing u..i really miss u alot..really afraid that u may tell me to go away again..

50 plus days to seeing u.. i promise i will take gd care of myself but i jus cant help falling sick.. got serious diahorrea today keep going toilet.. think have to go c ammo again tmr.. think even the ammo get tired of me.. first is rashes.. nxt is fever nxt nxt is diahorrea.. so wads next? but the gd thing is i slimmed down a fair bit haha.. yay then i will look better when i c u except for my hands and legs lo.. got alot of insect bites.. i promise i will get well.. i will u also must keep ya promise can?

i promise to take gd care.. u will keep your promise rt? u also take gd care k!