it has been qt a long time since i have blogged.. realli missed u alot.. realli.. alvin.. can u pls dun pity me if u dun have any feelings for me anymore? jus make me give up? dun treat me like u treat ya ex.. u realli dunit to be responsible for me..if u dun feel for me anymore jus leave me alone.. 6 mths past, its realli hard from all the msging to nw i try my very best to stop msging u but sometimes i jus fail to do that sry. noe wad? my plt mate was ya ex bf.. haha he told me abt u.. said she said that u were with me becox u wanted to make up to me for helping u.. alvin i realli hope even if u dun love me anymore, this was nt the reason u love me for.. i realli hoped..3 more wks to seeing u.. can i pls talk to u? jus for a while also will do? somewhre whre onli both of us will talk? can..
30 more days.

long time nv update le.. wonder hw u r doing.. hmm.. talk to bobbi actualli today.. he said he saw xinyuan and kahping and dat u r coming bk to look for cap peter.. he also say u talk to him online.. haha actualli i alreadi know u blocked me.. nt suprising la..the person u wana c when u come is cap peter rt? and bobbi and those sierra ppl rt..shld be then..its jus stupid dat i jus cant forget u.. cant blame anione except myself.. i am really tired.

yesterday jus went bukit batok botak jones haha memories came bk i really cant deny i cant forget.. i realli cant if onli i cld jus c u jus once to talk to u to tell u hw i feel to c hw u r doing.. then i crossed the road bk to whre we always go the ntuc whre we bought food to cook, the chinese sinseh whre u took me to when i have this bump on my hand..the prima deli shop.. it jus feels so close but yet so far.. whre r u? hw come u can sometimes jus come and go so sudden..i didnt talk to u becox i feel dat u can solve my problem but becox i feel u cld understand.. if it u feel dat i am using u again i have nthing to say..

if u cld jus erase the memories- i noe i will nv ever forget

few more wks to commissioning.. duno whther u will ever read this entry but yupxs quite disappointed that u didnt reply me duno whther its mine hp or rather u still feel that i am using u to solve my prob again i really duno seriously..i told u becox i feel that u r the one that onli believes in me..i rushed bk to read my msges haha then the msges just keep appearing but none was yours.. it was really qt dissappointing.. but it dun hurt so much le cox i noe i am always bothering u.. really gt this bad feeling that u will nv meet again.. maybe this will jus be the end..

i cant slp..properly.. the thought of just letting it go is tough.. but i have to do it.. jiayou!jiayou!

i love you but i know i cant love u anymore.
last entry.
it hurts really everytime when you seem to start openin up to me again and u tell me something that you r just asking or dropping the medicine for the last time. it really hurts and its really affecting me. i guess i really need to stop now..i really hope u will find someone u really love.. some day and me too.. i will move on.. take care.. thnks for making me love someone before, i really really want to spend my life with you but i know ya feeling is not thre anymore and this is the limit i can do..good bye.. and take care

pls dun do anything for me anymore.. u dunit to.. jus leave me alone pls.